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I have gotten around to watching Treasure Planet. I liked the movie. It's kind of nice Jim doesn't actually end up with anyone, and it's a story on acceptance. I was recommended it by an online friend. It's been a good few months and I finally got myself to watch it. The TV wasn't very loud, though. Actually not the TV, the characters. A lot of them mumble. It wouldn't be a problem if I listened with earphones, but I was watching it with my sister so. Oh well. Friends have been wanting to do a group call. I've showed up every day, punctually. But it keeps getting cancelled, so I told them to just put it on hold altogether. I'm annoyed, but honestly I can't blame them. I've been doing nothing this entire time, and I haven't been connecting with anybody. Bigger social circles would be nice, but it's tiring too, so I don't really know what I want with myself. ---- Self-analysis. Self-acceptance. Self-confidence. I was reading an article ...

 Today was a pretty good day. Almost perfect to be honest. So I'll account what happened. I woke up late. But fulfilled. Last night I wrote an analysis of Dino from Seventeen's type, who is an ESTJ 3w4. His Weverse interview is GOLD, there's evidence for all of his functions there. He happened to trend today so I decided to post it after all (I posted it half an hour ago) But I'm really happy with that analysis. I learned new things about ESTJs and how they functioned, and I could see it so clearly in Dino that I could apply them. I was so proud of it, though, that I hesitated to post it. I kept talking to my sister about it. I don't even know why I was so excited over it, but it was the best analysis I had written in a while. So I found an alternative - Reddit. I planned on starting a Kpop typology community with someone, and that analysis seemed like the perfect place to start. But I wanted to share knowledge with PDB, so I was torn. So I decided - write another a...

 Decided to do a week update since I'm so inconsistent. I'm bored. I'm so bored. I've even asked my mom to start A-level math early. She allowed me easily though.  I still haven't finished Haikyuu. I've been frozen in inertia, but hopefully I finish it soon. Enhypen's Japanese debut is coming soon, which means Re-main is coming. I should check it out. I'm a few songs into Olivia Rodrigo's album review. I don't even know why I'm still doing it.  This week I've been focusing on scholarships. I finally sent in one, now I've got a few more to go. I wrote an analysis of Kang Taehyun of TXT being 7w6 instead of 5w6. With all honesty, he's very level-headed and pragmatic, so 5 seems like the basic choice since they're intelligent and realistic while 7s are rowdy and excitable. But 5 isn't compatible with ESTP. And like, he's never had 5 motivations.  I also read up on enneagram 2 subtypes to determine Jake of Enhypen's ty...

 God I hate bragging so much. Scholarship essays will be the death of me.  I tried to make the essay a bit more... humane? But my mom said I didn't list the important achievements enough. I passed the word limit, but then again, I'm the same person who used 4 extra pages for her IGCSE English essay and still got an A*. I managed to fit what she wanted in. I have a feeling the essay isn't to her taste, but researching on how essays are made, I guess I'm the same. All we have to talk about is an interesting experience, and how it changed you. Or something. People look for humans who are contemplative, not robots. But then, a lot of these example essays involve something like a trip to the cheese shop or a dead father or something. I don't do those. I'm not someone with a lot of experience, which can be good because I don't think I've faced a lot of hardships and obstacles in my life besides my own self, but it's bad because... I'm boring. I'm t...

 My sister had exams this morning, so we came to tuition for her to print and scan her work. I'm free, so I'm using the computer to finish Haikyuu season 2.  The match is intense. I don't know if Karasuno will win, but I guess that's why it's intriguing. I'm proceeding with writing after this. Update: Heck yeah they won! - 15/6. Forgot to update. Forgot what happened. - 16/6 Researched on MIDI composing. I've always wanted to give it a try, but god, it looks like it needs so much practice and commitment. That's difficult. I'll focus on all my scholarship applications first, maybe. Then I'll have a load off my shoulders. Started Haikyuu season 3 today. The art >>> it has improved so much wow. Updated my Enhypen Accordion book in the Jungwon (coding), Heeseung (music), and Ni-ki (anime) section with what I want to achieve this break by writing goals. This study room didn't have a nice pen lying around but fortunately enough I had a sha...

 Fun facts and trivia about this blog, because I love these kinds of things. It breathes a little life into the blog. And the fact hogger in me enjoys it. Titles are hard. The first title was Downtime Diary, because I liked the word downtime. I'm freed from the responsibility of a student and now have time to recharge as a person. I thought it fitted the theme of this break well. Another idea was Half-year [something]. Because, you know, half-year. 6 months. The break is six months long. Except it isn't exactly six months long thus would be somewhat incorrect. I also really liked the phrase carte blanche. Complete freedom to act at one's own wishes. I admit, I'm not selfless. A lot of my thoughts are more self-centered than I'd like them to be. But I never felt like I lived for myself either, so that phrase resonated with me. Except it didn't feel catchy. None of them did. You'd forget the title. I'd forget the title. So I decided on a trademark instead....

 Sunday. 13th June 2021. Two days after the last day of school and the last day of IGCSE. I made plenty of blogs in the past. None of them I felt confident enough to publicize to the people around me. I guess now that I've graduated I've found a source of newfound confidence. Maybe I want people to get to know things and experience what I will experience. Maybe I want to find a way to connect with the friends I can't find myself to talk to. Either that or I want a record to leave behind. The pandemic messed up my concept of time badly. With this, I'll know what I did every day. So. Today. Yesterday I had an hour-long call with a friend. (I just realised I never thought about name-dropping. Is it allowed to say names here? I won't just for the sake of it I guess) He's wanted me to watch Interstellar for ages. I guess I finally did it. Though at varying speeds (you know that option where you can change speeds? x1.25, x1.5, and x2.0 were my options), since I have a...