aemulu.diary

 I may know what I want to do with my life. Okay, the thing is, I'm intrigued by engineering. I like the prospect of being able to solve problems on your own while helping civilisation, and I like the modern aspect of it which combines innovative ideas with technology. I, too, like medicine, mainly because the human body, and emotions, are so foreign to me, and I want to explore these. I want to explore the brain. But the routes both of them insist I take... aren't for me? I'm not smart enough for engineering, which is a stupid reason, but I'm not that interested in technology itself. As for medicine, I'm not pleased with the idea that I'm confined to only one path, and only to one place - Malaysia. The long years of studying are tough, but I think what I'll really dislike is not having any time to myself and my job being something that I don't enjoy. I like learning and accumulating my knowledge, but I don't like being of service to others. Then I f...

 I regret sleeping at 5. I regret waking at 11. I'm exhausted and I haven't even got much done. Recorded my speech, and encountered a few problems. One including having to rewrite parts of the speech because changes didn't sync and my voice is kinda awkward. Gave me a blatant headache, so I ended up just sending it in when I thought it was satisfactory. I'll probably just not watch the graduation tomorrow when I come up. To relieve stress I ended up lying down with the rabbit (I've got a black bunny lol his name's Julian). Unfortunately my mom still asks me a lot of questions and I was pretty annoyed and showed it. You can't really be your happiest while tired and hungry. I do feel bad, though, I sort of wish I hid my feelings better. My mom gave us a talk in the car on giving us a job for the summer, since we're free. Wake up, and we lessen her workload by doing admin work. To be honest, I'm not very enthusiastic about it and I can tell my sister is...

I'm very very bad at religion. Today my mom sent me to a Pendidikan Islam class for SPM, and well, I didn't understand much. I woke up at like 12 40 pm so I wasn't the most alert either. I did manage to catch some, and to say I didn't learn anything would be incorrect. I hope to be able to translate what I learnt in Sejarah yesterday into English for my convenience but I haven't gotten around to that. Anyways, I started A-level math and started Week 4 - Coordinate Geometry. To be honest, I dislike most graphical questions in math because 1) drawing graphs are a hassle, and 2) finding points on a graph are a hassle. They take too much time for my liking. But anyways, I'm learning about circle geometry at the moment and it's interesting because the equation of the circle is (x-a)^2 + (y-b)^2 = r^2 with r being the radius, and a and b being the x and y coordinates of the center of the circle respectively. Which, when I hear the explanation for the equation itse...

Malay History ciri-ciri negara bangsa 1. Raja 2. Undang-undang 3. Wilayah Pengaruh (tempat dia dijaga?) 4. Rakyat People would wash king's feet and drink the water. Melaka empire used to be huger Srivjaya had parts of Sumatra in Malayan empire Funan, Champa, Kedah Tua, something, Srivjaya, and Mahasomething -> kerajaan (Majapahit + Gangga Negara) The bigger the empire the larger Ciri-ciri + kedaulatan, kerajaan, dan lambang kebesaran - Raja. Ciri-ciri negara bangsa Kesultanan Melayu Melaka Kerajaan. Sistem Pembesar Empat Lipatan. Tonggak pentadbiran Melaka. In Melaka they use Sultan so Kesultanan rather than Kerajaan Two social hierarchies.  Golongan Pemerintah. Sultan dan pembesar Golongan Diperintah. Rakyat - orang Melayu + Orang laut Kedaulatan - lambang kekuasan tertinggi seseorang sultan dan merupakan hak mutlak sultan untuk mengawal rakyat dan wilayahnya. Undang-undang famous -> Hukun Kanun Melaka. Undang-undang Laut Negara. -> menjadikan kesultanan Melaka sebagai k...

 With all honesty, I only heard of her recently. And me being the K-pop fan I was, I didn't bother to listen to her. However, a friend recommended me the album. So I thought I should get around to writing my thoughts on it, because it wouldn't be fair if I listened to it without giving my thoughts. (Though with all honesty, nobody ever reviewed my recommendations. It's why I hate recommending - nobody even listens, and false hope isn't very fun.) So, Olivia Rodrigo. I checked out her Spotify and scrolled down her artist bio. She's actually... pretty interesting. She seems pretty nice and friendly, but at the same time she writes her own songs, so I'm glad she has a medium of expression somewhat. I was never a fan of stylized all-lowercase though, but otherwise, she seems like a nice person. 1. brutal Probably my favourite song at first listen, since it stands out genre-wise. Maybe I'm a fan of the rock, but also of her talking way of singing. I don't car...

 Woke up at 2:49 pm. Not very good. I read up on oversleeping and found out it's linked to depression, sleep apnea, diabetes, and more. Also not very good. And I admit, I have been feeling even more tired from waking up late, leading me to realize that I probably should not be doing this. What I did today:  Reply to people on PDB. There was this irritating person. People. Yikes. Also helped my mom edit her speech. She's late, but the office lady said since she's the "pioneer parent" of the school she has the privilege of sending in things later than others. That's what you get if you have a mom cooler than you :P And then another daily drive around the neighbourhood.  We also voted for contestants for the survival show, Loud.  I've only been awake for 6 hours and I... haven't done very much. ------------- Plans for tomorrow (or the day after) (remove later) 1. Wake up at 10 am (still late but better than 3 pm) 2. Rewrite my PDB bio 3. Compile my past a...